Days

awards day is over...

feels like a heavy thing just lifted of my shoulder

tho i kno my duties have not finished

but just a relieved... satisfied tht its over....

disappointed tht the singing team didnt get mike justice again

thought i could have done much better for MC-ing...

and a few stupid mistakes were done for awards....

ish.... But all in all...

at least its over =)

uni is starting in 4 days....

eventho everyone says its nothing wan lah

dont worry so much

aiyo, you worry for nothing la

BUT I BET YOU THEY FELT THE SAME WAY WHEN THEY WERE ABOUT TO ENTER !!!

yes im pretty excited....

but at the same time, nervous

i havent really learnt to just leave my future to God

so i keep fearing it....

there's just so much i need to learn

and so much to improve

yet, so little time.....

sometimes before one thing ends, or ended but havent even got time to evaluate

another thing comes by

another thing i have realised of myself these days is tht

im becoming weaker

more.... vulnerable.....

i used to be able to tune out everything or not let remarks hit me

i used to be able to stand thru hard times

i used to be able to smile to hide whatever i felt inside

but nowadays, all i realise im doing, is tht i no longer try to do the three above

instead, i have to try super hard to hold tears back

TEARS !!!

GOSH !!! I cant believe it...

since when have i become a cry baby ?!

It's scaring me

So much that i push ppl away more and more nowadays

and well, ts is getting too personal to share on a blog....

lol......

but yup.... sighs of relieve....

one duty is done... give me a day or two's break before i embrace uni life

oh.... and the awards stuff for quarter 3........

oh.... and violin......

i need a holiday..... like one with just 2 or 3 friends.... sitting by the beach....

those kind....